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17 February 2016 @ 10:04 am
This might turn into another word vomit like my previous post but I thought I'd give it a try.

There has been a lot happening lately with the news of the hiatus, and most recently KAT-TUN graduating from Shounen Club Premium in March. I really was not surprised to hear this but it still was suckish news to wake up to. Again, it's really no surprise. Next, it will be Tame Tabi by the end of March and that won't be surprising either, but it will still be sad and upsetting when we get the news. It's difficult to coney my thoughts right now but my biggest hope is that the members are okay and being strong, and yes that means all four of them.

I really have been doing a lot of thinking about this. The hiatus must have really been a long time coming, and KAT-TUN really do deserve a break. They barely even got a month after Koki was gone and they kept going. It must be tiring for them to work under such circumstances. Taking a break from group activities will probably be beneficial to them emotionally, simply because they need to handle such a substantial loss to their group, and it must be taxing to continue working normally. As Kame said, "each of us steadily carries this group called KAT-TUN on his shoulders. Each of us gives it strength. Devoting time, that's what KAT-TUN needs right now." (While writing this and re-reading the messages they gave us, I'm in tears again because of course it'll be hard, but what we want is for KAT-TUN and it's members to be okay, right?) Ueda asked that we wait for them, and I will do that, as I'm sure a lot of other fans will as well.

As much as I can understand where they're coming from, it also upsets me when fans say that they're not going to support KAT-TUN much anymore because Taguchi is their favorite. In my opinion, when you get into these groups, it's for all members and not just one. Even if it was Nakamaru who had decided to leave, I would have still continued to support them because I love them as a whole so much. Just to state my honest opinion. They all need our support right now, the support of fans and I really hope that they'll be able to feel that, even during their recharging/hiatus

I really wish it was possible for me to drop everything and go to Japan for one of their concerts. But you know, I really do trusst them and I expect them to uphold their promise for a comeback after their hiatus period. I also expect a lot of interesting individual projects for them because that's what they promised - and that's for all members. Not just for Kame, but for Nakamaru and Ueda too because I know they can do amazing things and I hope they do.

So TL;DR, KAT-TUN really do deserve this break and I believe that they'll come back stronger and better than ever after their 'recharge' period.

We're never ever alone~
We'll never give it up~ ♪

Thanks, if you took the time to read this and have a good day.
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Current Music: Atsukunare
29 November 2015 @ 12:14 am
I've never actually made a personal post like this before here on livejournal, so I figured that why not, it's a good time as any to start.

I'll start by saying that - holy shit, what a crappy week it's been. Monday wasn't so bad, but Tuesday onwards was the worst. I guess you guys can probably guess why, right? Yes, it has everything to do with the dork in my icon for this post. I haven't been able to properly express or even gather my feelings on the manner because it's been so overwhelming, I've been busy, yada yada. But I think that the fact of the matter is that, even though I went through so many Shounen Club Premium performances and Sekaiichi Tame ni Naru Tabi's (as well as watched Best Artist a good five or so times) it just hasn't sunk in.

Even writing this now, I'm not sure if it has, even though I feel like there's a weight on my chest and a pit in my stomach and I cry a lot when I watch things. It's a confusing feeling. But I'll do my best to express my thoughts about it.

My first initial thought was disbelief, waking up to so many messages on Twitter and Line about it. I thought "this can't be real" as I sat there, feeling sick to my stomach. Then, of course, it was confusion. Why Taguchi, who always seemed so happy to be doing what he was doing? To make promises and say that he wanted to stay with KAT-TUN? This led to a mix of depression and anger - not towards him, but towards whatever the reason was, which doesn't really make sense. I was worried after reading all of the fan reports of Best Artist. For the sake of Taguchi, for the sake of Kame, Ueda, and Nakamaru who all looked really upset during the announcement and during the performance. Especially reading that Nakamaru was heard crying after, it broke my heart.

Throughout the rest of the week it was varied emotions between upset, angry, depressed, etc. The question of "why" continued to weigh heavily on my mind, and honestly I couldn't really focus in any of my classes. I just wanted to keep checking Twitter and Line to see if there was anything new to read. Throughout this time, I wondered if it was really the best idea to announce it on live TV when almost nobody saw it coming. I wondered why he'd announce it so soon if it's not going to happen for a few months yet. In my personal opinion, it feels as though it would have been better to have a clean cut instead of dragging it out. He didn't give much of a reason either. To say "I'm turning 30 soon and I've been thinking about my life" seems like a reason so unlike him to pull back. It just seems so unlike him so I'm still confused. I probably will still continue to be. Did he suddenly become half-hearted? Did he decide something else was more important? Or, did he have an existential/mid-life crisis like I've been seeing theories about? There's probably going to be no way of knowing, which is honestly the most upsetting part.

Now, my worries are mostly for the remaining three members. It's weighing me down so much, and the thought will not leave me alone - "Will 3人 really work? Can they rebuild and start a new base with half their members gone? What will happen to their shows, like Sekaiichi Tame ni Naru Tabi and Shounen Club Premium once he's gone? These worries are insignificant considering what they're facing right now, but I can't help but wonder if they'll be okay. I care for them way too much to lose them. I wish I could send my support, but I'm so far away. The perks of being an international fan.


This is what I'm wondering right now, Nakamaru. It makes me wonder how long they actually knew (apparently about half a year, according to what he said on Shuichi) which makes it even more confusing, because I really could not have guessed- I don't think that anybody saw it coming and now it's just a whole mess of confusion and upset.

As I'm writing this, I realize that it doesn't make sense. But I guess it doesn't really matter since not many people will actually read it anyway. It made sense in my head and as I was writing, but I don't know much much sense it'll make to those reading. For that, I apologize.

Point is, I fucking love Taguchi so much and I wish him all the happiness that he deserves, even though I really wish this wasn't happening to them again. I just want them all to be happy.
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: hide and seek
20 September 2015 @ 07:29 pm
Title: Suit & Tie
Pairing: Nakamaru/Kame
Genre: Slight humor I guess? Also smut.
Rating: NC17
Summary: Nakamaru’s idea to go suit shopping with Kame didn’t go exactly the way he had intended.
Note: Written for dearmykeysx !!

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12 June 2015 @ 09:51 pm

Title: Good Boy
Pairing: Taguchi/Tanaka/Nakamaru (NTT)
Genre: Smut. There’s really not much else to it.
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Koki has a small surprise for Nakamaru.
Warning: PWP, language.

Note: This is inspired by Nakamaru in the collar in First Class.
(This actually took me insanely long to finish but I have no idea why.)

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Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Mi Amor

Title: Refreshing
Pairing: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Fluff, humor
Rating: PG-13
Summary: It was always difficult for Yuichi to relax.

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Title: Peace & Quiet
Pairing: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Romance, fluff
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Yuichi should have known that it was pointless to try to recommend Junno a book to read.

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Title: A Proposal
Pairing: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Fluff, romance, humor.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Junno has a proposal for Yuichi.

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Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Brand New Day
28 March 2015 @ 09:32 pm

Title: Karaoke Fun
Pair: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Smut and some romance and humor I guess.
Rating: NC-17
Summary: They were supposed to be working on their duet song, but of course Taguchi had something else on his mind.
Note: Lyrics taken from yarukizero @ LJ!

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16 February 2015 @ 05:13 pm

Title: A Little Experimentation.

Pairing: Nakamaru/Kame

Genre: Humor/slight fluff

Rating: PG

Summary: After seeing his character in the Joker Game comment, Nakamaru wants to experiment.

Note: And again – this is another fic based off the Crossdresser!Yucchi from the Joker Game Comic.

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Current Music: Polaris
16 February 2015 @ 12:40 am

Title: Something of the Usual.
Pairing: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Slightly romance – Smut, AU
Summary: Taguchi always seemed to have the ability to help him relax at the end of the day.
Note: Prompted by Crossdresser!Nakamaru in the KAT-TUN Joker Game Comic (as well as plot bunnies from je_levy)

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Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: RUN FOR YOU
01 January 2015 @ 05:22 pm
Title: Cozy Days.
Pairing: KAT-TUN Gen (All Nakamaru pairings in 5nin) (Pre-slash for whatever pair you may prefer.)
Genre: Fluff, ficlets
Rating: PG
Summary: There were four times that the others wanted to cuddle with him.
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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Birds - KAT-TUN
14 May 2014 @ 10:31 am
Title: Late Night
Pairing: Taguchi/Nakamaru
Genre: Fluff, hurt/comfort
Rating: PG
Summary: Nakamaru tries to comfort a run-down Taguchi.

A/N: This is set around the time that Taguchi actually did hurt his knee and was worried about this.

I have not even posted in a while and even if this is such a short little fic I feel accomplished to actually have posted something so-

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